Someone wants me to go to the city where my mother calls home...
I wanna... heh even thinking about it makes me.... sad...
hahahaha... damn... even thinking about it...
I miss her so much everyday...
I try and do the right thing like I promised her...
I know i do, but somedays it just doesn't feel that way...
for a long time I would break down and cry...
i would laugh and lie... hahahaha...
even in my half truths I found solice that she would love me still knowing i was doing what would be her will...
if anyone ever knew that I lived my life by the words of my mother...
would they understand the decisions i've made...
would they f